I was recently
asked in an interview what I did to overcome writer’s block, and I was stumped
for a second. I’d never really thought about it; when I sat down at my desk, I
was always brimming with ten thousand things I wanted to get down. Sometimes
there was just so much material waiting to burst out of me that it came out
back to front and it would take hours to sift through and put it all into
chronological order. It seemed as though I was immune to this so called 'block' that everyone was talking about. They were blissful days, the ones when I could
sit and write and only stop when I physically had to because my hands were
throbbing from mashing the keyboard so enthusiastically.
And then I moved
house. Something happened when I moved house- maybe it was the stress of having
to pack up my life for the fifteen millionth time, or maybe it was the
inconvenience of moving somewhere I wasn’t particularly interested in
living, but I…just…stopped…writing…
It’s a horrible
thing, having a half finished project staring at you from your screen, and not
being able to take the first step towards completing it. I had my chapters
plotted, I had my characters prepped and loitering in the sidelines, waiting
for their moment to shine. I had a
file bulging with research and notes. I also had no motivation.
My characters
took to playing Yahtzee in the back of my head while I read about fifteen books
instead of writing, and my word count glared balefully at me from my monitor
every time I hedged passed my computer, promising myself I would write
something ‘later’. Later never came.
Weeks passed by
and, where before I would have easily finished the novel and be onto editing by
that point, nothing had happened in my fictional world. There came a point when
a family member asked me where I was up to with my writing, and I had to
explain that I’d taken a bit of a break to do graphic work and make book
trailers, and they said, “but I thought your passion was for writing.”
I replied, “It
is!” But I finally realized that passion had gone on vacation without me. I had
to get it back.
I tried a whole
bunch of things to get myself geared for writing; the Rocky music didn’t work,
just made me want to watch Rocky. After I’d watched that, I spent going over my
notes, trying to immerse myself back into my work, but it felt like there was
an uncomfortable disconnect there. That frightened the crap out of me, because
it had never happened before. I got to thinking about what would happen if I
never reconnected, what would happen to my half finished book, and the
characters I’d painstakingly created in my head. I couldn’t leave their stories
incomplete. I felt like crying when I considered that outcome. I felt useless
and dejected and frankly was filled with self-doubt.
Enter the hollow
days where I sulked around my apartment eating peanut butter off a spoon,
bemoaning that fact that I was no longer a writer, but a person who hung around
at home all day pretending to be one.
It took a long
time to pull myself out of my funk. I only managed it by re-reading my book
from the beginning, starting at page one and working my way through until the
scenes and events that I’d planned for the story came crashing back to me in
full force. That was how I managed to smash that block into little pieces and
start writing again. But it wasn’t
easy by any stretch of the imagination. My plan to avoid writer’s block in the
future is to never move house again. I have real hope that that ploy will work out for me, but if that fails then I guess I’m going to start at page one all over
again. Regardless of the project, I think that will always be a surefire way to
rekindle my passion for my work.
So, now I ask
the question that was posed to me in that interview all those months ago, knowing
now how brutal a block can be: how do you all cope with your writer’s block?
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